How fine is the line between thigh gap worship and praying
for your first ‘proud’ glute shot?
It’s also becoming harder to see the wood from the trees with tiny, so-called ‘clean eating’ pictures and the images of meals someone with anorexia is trying to pass as a plate-full of food porn.
It’s also becoming harder to see the wood from the trees with tiny, so-called ‘clean eating’ pictures and the images of meals someone with anorexia is trying to pass as a plate-full of food porn.
This is why I have an issue with the ever growing amount of ‘fitspro’
out there. Of course, I am coming at this after having had anorexia and battled
with over-exercise – but also as someone who’s coached elite gymnastics and
really does understand the difference between an eating disorder, diet,
training (over training), fuelling our bodies and being healthy. Spot the difference here?
I understand there is a difference here between people
getting fit, being elite athletes or eating healthier to lose weight and those
recovering from an eating disorder. Not everyone who exercises religiously does
so obsessively and not everyone who eats a restricted diet has an eating
disorder. But some do.
For the latter, it’s even more dangerous. It’s switching one obsession and body and food-centred lifestyle for another. I’m also talking as someone who’s at risk of falling into that trap. Also, let’s be clear here, I’m not talking about running to clear your mind or going to yoga classes to ease an aching body (and mind) or choosing to eat healthy foods. All very sensible right?
For the latter, it’s even more dangerous. It’s switching one obsession and body and food-centred lifestyle for another. I’m also talking as someone who’s at risk of falling into that trap. Also, let’s be clear here, I’m not talking about running to clear your mind or going to yoga classes to ease an aching body (and mind) or choosing to eat healthy foods. All very sensible right?
I’m talking about the blurred bit on social media – because haven’t
we tried to ban another group of people continually posting semi-naked pictures
of themselves online? Recently I wrote something on Instagram stating that it's just ass dangerous – and the founders of the #GirlGains hashtag tell me it’s meant to “be
something where like-minded girls can encourage each other to be the best
version of themselves personally, professionally or in the gym.” I understand,
fully and trust they know their own limits - but...
Sounds great, but to that I would say the pursuit of being
the best that I can be almost killed me with exercise and food. I was with
like-minding girls on a pro anorexia forum too. I was also with ‘like-minded’
people on a mainstream dieting community getting motivation for weight loss. Putting that message across through the same
strict and defining rules is putting as much pressure on men and women to
always have to better themselves and not be content with what they have.
I feel it’s even MORE dangerous because it’s accepted by
society. Where people squirm at images of frail, thinspo and thigh gaps are
seen as disgusting – the super-toned-healthy-dedicated ‘athletes’ are accepted? Happy, free looking girls prancing around a beach in a bikini or toned women posing in gym bathrooms, looking for 'Likes' or RTs - looking for acceptance from others for their bodies. For each of them, how many are weeping into their black coffee on the way home from a workout?
It’s like the pressure and obsession is masked, for many, by a drive health and
fitness. Personally, my own eating disorder and drive came from the fitspro
camp long before the thinspro one – I just slipped and anorexia consumed the
last remaining bit of me doing it for ‘health.’
Back to the point, let’s be realistic here, how many people
will search for motivation for themselves on Pinterest, Instgram and Twitter
and see #Fitspro images with phrases such as “No Squat. No Butt” or “Dear Fat –
get the F*ck out my body” or the now infamous Kate Moss quote changed to “Nothing
tastes as good as feeling fit feels.” And so on. The same way someone with anorexia might
idolise someone who’s thinner than them or more ‘dedicated’ to their disorder, I
can't help but see the link here?
How many people see these images and then feel frustrated,
upset and sometimes ANGER against their bodies? Jealous that they haven’t got a
set of glutes like one girl and the defined abdominals of another and go to the
gym out of guilt?
Don’t get me stated on the same underwear mirror shots of
women (and men) calling themselves #AntiLazy or micro-analysing their bodies.
To me this is a mirror image of the same mirror posing rituals I went through
at the height of my eating disorder, and long before.
In terms of diet and food rules, I struggle to fathom how
obsessively counting calories is any different to refusing to eat meals that aren't
‘perfectly’ balance or counting macro nutrients? Or getting obsessed over the
amount of protein, fat or carbs you eat, or when you eat them. Setting rules
about pre and post work outs, making endless jars of prote-oats or brownies, or
pancakes.
How is only allowing yourself lean meat and spinach for five days and
then binging on carbs and sugar on a rest day any difference to binge eating
behaviour? One of the diagnostic factors
for anorexia is assessing the amount of time thoughts about food and body
consume. You’re telling me all that planning and counting doesn't take up too
much time. Let us not forget there is orthorexia too.
As I am coming from an eating disordered point here, I'll end with that. There
seems to be an ever-increasing number of people recovering from eating
disorders holding on to food rules and body obsession replacing thinspo with fitspo. On the surface it doesn't look like recovering to be the best they can be,
but instead looking for the next 'fix' for the perceived wrong bits of their
bodies. Is giving Barbie a butt just changing what we think we should be?
